Once in a Blue Moon

Its been sometime.

Have been updating my tumblr blog more often, although its privated.
but well, no one reads this too. oh well. Its like my secret diary or something like that.

Exams have ended and my classmates have graduated. I'm left here again. The feeling sucks.
Making new friends ain't my forte. I'm kinda anti-social. Wondering how to survive next semester again. Eat alone, study myself, not a bad thing either. I'm kinda fine with doing stuffs alone. Anyways enjoy graduation my friends :) I'll come down to look for y'all during graduation ceremony :D


I'm not a christian, but this song sounds really soothing. BON JOVI! WOO!!
alright, music is great. I'm feeling relaxed. Gotta sleep :)


#birdout \m/

I shouldn't give up, gotta grow some balls.
Step up, talk to her!

Goodbye. My dream.

What a night.. After so many days..
I'm guilt ridden and made up my mind.. I feel so lacking..
And since no one reads this anymore, I decided to rant here..

Finally I made up my mind..
I listened to what my dad told me..
I'm giving up my dreams..
I couldn't go far with it..

"Treat it as a hobby, don't be too into it." that's what he said.

This night.. I would heed that advice..

This few days I've been thinking.
Maybe dad was right?
This thing I've concentrated on so much has pulled my grades down.
Then I thought of what a good friend of mine in poly told me.
I thought it was kinda true..

I'm grateful though, to be able to play.
"It's a girly instrument!"
"You cant do big,after you complete your grading, diploma? It's just a piece of cert. You can teach but class nowadays are cheap how much you can earn?"

Some questions and response I get,
Bleh, I liked it so what it's girly. If I could teach I would like to spread my knowledge, for now I wouldn't care about the salaries, I got no family to feed.

It is like a bunch of balloons. But it always get shot by arrows.
Every since I entered tertiary, more and more arrows shot it down. I lost hope.
There are still some balloons left. Till tonight, I decided to release it myself.
After this 2 years, I'm gonna find something realistic.


Practice? I couldn't play much even though im trying..sheesh..damn my injuries. How precious my fingers were.
I didn't realize till I entered tertiary. Much regrets.

To tell you my dreams, it will be a laughing stock to everyone.
To be a cool and awesome player and also somehow a composer.
Who cares? Like i said, Laugh all you want. I know I'm no where near it anyway..

I didn't wanna be part of this circle anymore. I didn't even make a step into it though.

But I'll continue to learn and play. For myself, for leisure, for entertainment. I'm gonna be selfish~

As someone I know said, "If you can play, let others listen to it, let them feel what you are playing, don't be selfish and play for yourself." sorry senior, but I'll be that selfish one.. I don't deserve to play to anyone too..

Haha dreams?
I'll sink them..

Always feeling like this during exams... I really want to give up and pursue what I really want. Engineering isn't my choice, but since i've stepped into it, I would want to complete it... Money is always the issue. I wouldn't want to waste my parent's money. I've paid the school fees, so no matter what I gotta finish it...

I'm just gonna post a few songs before leaving, cos i wont be back soon and i believe these songs can keep ya'll entertained. Or should i say, this is my playlist that have kept me entertained for few month... Top few songs are Kpop, most of them CN blue.... The rest english rap, mostly....

Yonghwa - Because I Miss You

Yonghwa, Seohyun - Banmal Song

yonghwa - You've Fallen For Me

CN Blue - I'm A Loner

CN Blue - Love Girl

CN Blue - Friday

Wiz Khalifa & Snoop Dog- Young Wild and Free feat. Bruno Mars

David Choi - Missing Piece

BOB - Don't Let Me Fall.

Tupac - Ghetto Gospel

Tupac - California Love feat Dr Dre

Some of my songs in my playlist. Respects to Tupac~

alright. till next time~

you are my destiny~~~~

Still lalalala-ing all the way... I'm doin it manxz~

Guess what, PART 2~~
cant upload the original mv, but i heard the girl in the mv is haha's sister. gosh!!

haha enjoy my bball session today,

super tired,

going to sleep already...

update next time. 

enjoy the songs :)

Screwed :(

I should be sleeping now due to MST paper tomorrow.... But I can't fall asleep... Too worried for the paper tomorrow. anyways just post a cheerful song :):) by HAHA!

It's like stepping into a fight without weapons. That's what I'm experiencing now..

I did prepare for it, but too last minute and it wasn't enough.... Here here take a look at my table! A big huge mess, it's awesome if you could see my laptop -.-

Oh well..
I'm dead..
Try sleeping..
Nights

kkkk im sorry, can't get over this song yet >.< too nice :D:D

LOL another english song.....NICE NICE NICE!! ^^

kk lets get started.

basically, before MST period, I tend to give up myself.

So in other words, I'm fucked~

But still will try my best la~ haha

Yesterday went school to study,

ended up studying only 1 chapter of IBE

simple stuffs. hard things not here yet.

Then gossip during dinner etc etc~ hmmmm

hope camp will do well, but now priority, MST! 

today went food testing.

food was ok, edible....

LOL rested for the whole day~

tomorrow got dental,

confirm get scolded one.

I didn't put my bands for a whole month. haha

I'm screwed :x

kkk shall rest early..

nights :):)

I'm so sorry, but i love you~

Lets post both Kpop and english songs~ haha

kkk im sorry, but Nicole is too cute :x gotta post her videos!
the Kpop song appeared in dream high and i find it nice so I'll just share it with ya'll

kkkk today was crazy for me!
dafuq was wrong with me?!?!
k i totally hated people touch my wallet and taking my things out.
But still not a reason to be mad...
I'm sorry my friends :(:(
~im so sorry but i love you like a $%^&%~
won't happen again~

kkk back to related stuffs.
here it is~
Rachmaninoff Piano Concerto 2!!
hehehe sorry, totally addicted to it :x

kkk the 1st movement only~ haha lazy to find all 3~
so if u think its nice, look it up on youtube~
k its late, shall sleep~
byeeee~